I’m busy doing nothing……..

So yesterday was all about the new addition to our household and how I’m trying to remain calm and happy that he’s a little cutie and work through any issues with him and us! 

But as well as the new pooch coming into my life, another big thing is happening to me right now too.

I, am about to be jobless. Gulp.

I’ve worked for the same employer for the last 20+ years. And in the same job for the last 11 years. I work for the ‘government’. I am a good old civil servant. Well, we all know that budgets are being cut and jobs are going and I have decided to jump ship before the axe falls. So at the end of the month I’m unemployed.

It was time. Time for a change. Time for a fresh start or at least the glimmer of one, the idea of one, the dream of one. And even though I’m a teensy bit terrified it feels right. So, that’s the positive.

The negative? Well there are plenty of those. What if I can’t get another job? What if I hate any job I find? What if I just want to stay at home and look after my new pup. Or maybe my brain has turned to mush, like I always suspected after doing the same job for 11 years, and I don’t get any interviews.

What I know I must remember during the next few days and weeks however, is that I’m lucky to have the opportunity to be paid for leaving the job and that this is an amazing opportunity. I acknowledge that, even though I’m scared. I am turning the page on an unwritten chapter in my life. A chapter that, if I’m brave enough and dig out some gumption, I can make it what I want it to be.

I’ve had a tricky couple of years personally speaking and plans and hopes I had didn’t happen so now I have made a concious decison to do life differently and I need to remember that I can do it and I will do it, whatever ‘it’ turns out to be.

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